The Glow Up Year
If you’re ready to chase your own dreams, fuel your passion, and see what it takes to rise to the top, you’re in the right place. This podcast is your front-row seat to my journey as I hustle, learn, and level up my modeling and acting career in real time. From auditions and photoshoots to script breakdowns and behind-the-scenes chaos, we’re diving into the ups, the downs, and everything in between.
The Glow Up Year
The Quantum Leap Blues
Hey friend—welcome back to The Glow Up Year. If you've ever had a massive breakthrough only to crash right after... you're not alone.
This week, I’m opening up about what I’m calling the Quantum Leap Blues—that disorienting moment when you’ve grown, leveled up, and stepped into a new version of yourself... but the world around you hasn’t caught up yet.
After four powerful days at Coco Rocha Model Camp—where I felt confident, creative, and truly me—I came back home only to feel like I didn’t belong in my own life anymore. One small moment triggered a full-on spiral: old habits, self-sabotage, binge eating, isolation. My nervous system was screaming, “This is too much!” even though it was everything I had wanted.
In this vulnerable episode, I walk you through what happened, how I moved through it, and why growth doesn’t always feel good in the moment. We talk about what it means to integrate a new version of yourself, how to ride out the lows after a high, and how to give yourself grace when you feel like you're regressing.
If you’re stuck between who you were and who you're becoming—this one's for you.
Let’s talk about the messy middle, the fear of success, and why you can have a glow up without losing yourself in the process.
Because around here? We don’t gatekeep. We grow together.
✨ 2025✨ is about to be huge, and I want you to be part of this journey. Let’s glow up together.
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Let’s glow up together—because your breakthrough moment might be closer than you think.
I don't even know if this episode is going to make any sense. I don't know. I don't know if I'm even going to post it. I don't even know if I want to say this, but I feel like I wouldn't be doing you justice or myself justice if I didn't share some of the lows. Welcome back to the glow up year. I'm meg actress model and you're behind the scenes bestie when it comes to chasing dreams and building something big. After years of navigating the ups, the downs and the wild in-betweens of the entertainment world, I'm fully stepping into this next level chapter. This podcast is your backstage pass to all the real stuff Auditions, photo shoots, mindset shifts, script prep, career curveballs, you name it. I'm sharing it all the highs and the hard lessons in real time. If you're ready to go all in on your glow up, take some brave steps and see what it really looks like to grow in this industry, grab your favorite drink, get cozy and let's dive in together. Hi friends, today's episode is going to be a little vulnerable. Not a little vulnerable, it's going to be a lot vulnerable. And if this isn't your vibe, you can just skip right on into the next episode. But I promised that I would share with you the highs and the lows, and today we're a little low. I feel like I wouldn't be I wouldn't be doing you justice or myself justice if I didn't share some of the lows, because the truth is, it's not always highs and it's okay to have lows, but this particular low has felt like a pattern and that's why I feel like it's something that I wanted to talk through with you guys today, like it's something that I wanted to talk through with you guys today. Oh, okay, I am calling this time, this time that I'm in right now, the quantum leap blues. For me, this usually happens after I've had a quantum leap and it's just, if I'm being completely honest, it's just my nervous system catching up to this new, this new version, this um, this better version, this new level.
Speaker 1:I went to Coco camp on Thursday. I went there, I stayed until Tuesday and then I was thrown right back into my normal job on Wednesday morning, and not a lot of time, like from being home to having to go straight into work for the next day. And I felt like these two people, like I felt like I was being split down the center, because when I was at Coco model camp, I felt like I was the most authentic me that I have ever been like. I just felt like I was in the right me that I have ever been Like. I just felt like I was in the right place at the right time with the right people and everybody was so caring and so loving and the entire experience was awesome and, like I said, I was teary-eyed every day because I just enjoyed it. I just had so much fun.
Speaker 1:And then it was kind of like whiplash, to be like thrown right back into my normal life pattern with the frustrations that I have with my normal job, and I just felt like I was this highest level of myself for four days and then I felt like I was like popping back down into what I had been before and these two versions of myself were just like bumping up against each other and saying no, we can't be separate anymore, we have to be one. But the thing with being one is that it's hard sometimes to change in a community of people, to decide you want to be something different and want to and take that leap and risk that judgment of other people. And so I felt like on that first day, right away when I was thrown back into work that I got oh, I don't know if you have, I don't even know if I want to say this. I felt like I got made fun of a little bit by one person. Why am I, why am I afraid to say that I felt like I got made fun of. I felt like I got bullied by one person. That one person made those two identities hitting up against each other because I went into that work day being like I am a new person, this is who I want to be and I'm going to show up as this new person everywhere I go. And then when I showed up with that new person, this person was not not kind to me that day and was very judgmental and made jokes and and so I hit up that personality. It was like right away that my new self was not accepted in like this old environment and I don't want to be in the old environment forever. Right, who does? Nobody wants to be in their day job forever, nobody. So those. I felt like right away that I couldn't be who I am anymore and it just like started this spiral of of shit.
Speaker 1:And then the mindset just got so bad for a week and I'm normally really good with mindset and the mindset just got so bad and so negative for a week that I just kept feeling like I had to fill the void with food and I just felt like I can't. I had to keep like like punishing myself and I don't. I it's crazy to me that I feel like and this is just like in general that I can't me beating myself up in my head doesn't? It can't be enough of a punishment itself. I have to actually like have a physical punishment, whatever it may be. Like feeding myself food that my body can't, can't digest and can't enjoy and can't use to grow really tried very hard for the last week to stuff it down and and binge eat it and make it all like kind of go away. At least for me with binge eating is that it really your problem is really only solved in the short window of time that you are actually physically eating and so you got to keep curbing it and you got to keep doing the behavior to make it any better. And it doesn't actually make it any better at all and I think I've shared on here.
Speaker 1:But I have a lot of inflammation issues and with my immune system and, and so when I do things like this, which, if I'm being completely honest, is not regularly. This is very old behavior for me, which is why it kind of blew my mind a little bit and by old I mean like four years old Like this is not typical behavior for me at all on the regular anymore, and so when I fell in to this pattern, I knew that something wasn't right and I I don't even know if this episode is going to make any sense, I don't know, I don't know if I'm even going to post it, but I just, I just honestly self-sabotaged my entire for like six straight days, as often and as regularly as I could, with food, and I just binge ate and my body really, really, really started paying for it like right away, honestly, right away. But, um, and the crazy thing is, this behavior like this behavior could previously last a day or two for me, but because I was away from my community, I was away from my family, I was away from my accountability, I, this behavior lasted like six full days. And I just wanted to talk about how we can get stuck in in fear thinking, because that's definitely where I am.
Speaker 1:I am stuck in some fear thinking and the fear, thinking it came from looking at these amazing, incredible fucking photos from model camp and being so proud of them and at the same time, being like, oh girl, you might have girl bossed too hard and I don't know if you can actually handle this. Like I don't know I, I don't know if you're, if I don't know if I could handle if my dreams came true. That sounds so ridiculous. That sounds so ridiculous. But it's like. What I'm getting stuck in is the fear of success.
Speaker 1:And what happens with the fear of success is what if I can't deal with the overwhelming responsibility, tasks, all of those things that come with this? What if I can't handle it? What if I embarrass myself in public, like majorly? What if I get it and I don't like it? Then all of this stuff, all of the work to get here, all of the time, all of it wouldn't. It's not wasted. It's not wasted, megan. It's not wasted. Life is about the journey, not about the destination. It's not wasted. It's not wasted, megan. It's not wasted. Life is about the journey, not about the destination. It's not wasted time. It's not wasted time, because I learned something. I enjoyed it. It's not wasted time. It's not wasted time. I'm just so, and I'm also frustrated that I let one person's insecurity make me feel like shit for six days instead of popping out of it.
Speaker 1:I want to talk a little bit today about the power of community, because if I had reached out to my community that week, then it wouldn't have taken that long for me to get it together. But I chose not to reach out to my community that week. Then it wouldn't have taken that long for me to get it together. But I chose not to reach out to my community that week and I chose to be distant, and my community would have had my back. They would have made me feel great right away. They would have helped me rewire the thoughts, get back on the right path right away.
Speaker 1:I know this is how I'm feeling right now is temporary, and that it's not going to last forever. When you're at a low, it's bound to come back up and you're bound to be back at a high soon, and so I'm just kind of waiting that out and I'm just kind of sitting with how I'm feeling right now and I'm just trying to make good choices for myself, because that's what I deserve, and I am doing my best to get myself back on track. I am not compromising how I feel right now or what I'm doing, and I'm just doing my best to get through and then when it gets better, it gets better. And right now it's just not a fun part, and and it's okay to not have fun parts, it's okay to have hard times. But if you're out there right now and you are on your own glow up, or you are are you're trying new things and you're trying to go to a new level, or you had a quantum leap and you're in the quantum blues, just hang in there and remember that it's temporary and lean on your community. Find that inner passion to keep going when you're ready and feel the emotions and don't compromise who you are for somebody else.
Speaker 1:Don't do it. I think that's all I got today. Y'all, I'm sorry. This has been so hard, this is so vulnerable, and that's it for today's episode of the Glow Up Year. Thanks for hanging out with me. I'm seriously so excited to have you along for the ride. We're only just getting started and the best is yet to come. If you felt fired up or inspired today, hit that subscribe button, leave a quick review and pass this episode along to another fellow dreamer in your circle. Want more BTS pep talks and updates? Come find me over on social at Meg Salisbury official. I'll be sharing more of my journey there. Remember, your glow up is unfolding, one bold move at a time. Keep showing up, keep dreaming bigger and I'll catch you on the next one.
